Friday, November 28, 2008 Y 4:15 AM

ahhhhhhhhhh.freak tard. cant sleep =_=
3 nights in a row.man im gonna die of insufficient sleep.(if thats possible)
and somehow i think it is =.=
i have decided to go to CHURCH
surprisingly enough.
yes.me.i need things to occupy myself so i dont think too much.
how sad is that.
ive practically locked myself in my house.
that is freaking depression in 1928
=_=
lets see if god exists.
(no offence to christians)
i'll know if my prayer comes true
in the mean time.i have NO IDEA whats gonna happen to me
i havent slept in days
and im not even feeling tired
(not even close)
and i DINT have coffee!!!
this is starting to REALLY freak me out.
i dint even know this could happen! x(
so now...
i shall rot..and stone...and wait for another day to come.
(sigh...)

(u might realise im trying to add colours cuz im totally BORED [considering the fact i cant sleep] AND i wanna cheer myself up.maybe a little colour could do that.considering ive been so black all the time)
{more yellow is good for me.[i think.i kinda searched considering i have ABSOLUTELY NOTHING to do]its somehow a cheery colour}

randomness--->i feel like eating ham ._.

with love: xue (: Y4:15 AM

Y 3:31 AM

失眠。失眠。失眠。咳。。。
给你的留言。你应该不会理吧。也对。。。是我的错。
对不起。

等待是辛苦的Y

with love: xue (: Y3:31 AM

对爱，

又过了一天。翻来覆去。又一夜的失眠。脑海里看到的都是你。該忘了你對不對？怕自己無法面對，無怨無悔，把一切留給紀念受過折磨的創傷，它會慢慢被歲月，一片片填滿漸漸就習慣不再想.忘記曾經最痛的地方。我應該堅強面對，學會遺忘。不能相愛的掙扎記憶會為我收藏，那些美麗時光為愛付出過的力量。帶著我去尋找,幸福的希望。記憶是一個行囊,陪伴著我到世界流浪.多希望你会打电话给我。但。。。明明知道不会发生的事。为什么我对他还总是带着希望去面对。不对。。。应该是说。逃避。我以前不会珍惜你。是我不对。很抱歉。。。伤害了你。现在所有的痛苦都应该我一个人承担。虽然希望你在我身旁。但我不能那么自私。看到你在线。很想和你问好。但我知道如果我真的怎么做。你只会更恨我。有好多好多话想对你说。却不晓得怎么开口。我为什么就是不能忘掉你？忘掉一切的一切？虽然忘掉你我不会那么痛苦。可是。。。我知道我内心并不想忘掉你。这种感觉。。。我从来没感受过。。。你到底要我做什么你才肯原谅我？？？不管发生什么事。我都会爱着你。

-自私鬼
p.s./i love you

我一直坐在角落， 没有人发现我还在难过，其实早就应该忘了。再怎么舍不得你还是走了，我还不想承认这事实，怎么会变成这个样子？没有了你真的什么都没有了。就像一个废人。回家的路上我哭了。。。眼泪在一次崩溃了。。。无能为力这样走着，再也不干骄傲奢求了。我还能够说些什么？我还能够做些什么？我好希望你会听见。。。应为我爱你 H.T...

好想打电话给你，却鼓不起勇气。好想到你家看你，但到了却不敢上楼。我到底是怎么了？？？

如果当时没有擦肩而过
也不会懂心可以多痛
感谢你给我一场美好的梦
既然是梦如何追求
和你爱的人走
原谅我不送
年轻时我唯一的错
在列车进站之前红灯在闪烁
闭上眼放开双手
请在我后悔之前离开我
在我还没有崩溃的时候
不愿意在用申情勒索你的温柔
会有多难过明天再说
请在我后悔之前离开我
去某个幸福快乐的星球
不缺懂我的笑容还能够承多久
你给的爱带着温度
有谁拥抱是最清楚
心跳传来的起伏像一个跳动的暖炉
手放进口袋的温度
融化了走过的路途
冰天雪地的过渡
能抱着你就很满足
谁都知道心都会变
更别说诺言
我不会爱你的爱
受伤害
所以宁愿安静的等待
叹息沉默家泪水和疲累
怎么会爱直升着一些
是不是时间把人变得傻了点
明明有过快了却忘了怀念
如果我可以不再迷恋
迷恋你在怀中幸福的香味
也许就能够不再有期待
期待你回来越好的未来
没人了解才选择隔绝着世界
有点疲倦以决裂的信念
白色球鞋走不会喧闹的海边
月光营火照亮许多笑脸
疯狂画面停留在眼前
末期却见性减员
我们越好装党的那片天
我一个人向前
我流浪在拥挤的从前
复习一夜夜黑白的空当夏天
呆坐在热闹的路边
啤酒霉变天
缺少了杀得很认真的心愿
我流浪在孤单的边缘
怀念会活着小胜得耀眼蓝天
听着拿手戏的音乐
只剩下亲选
希望让时间回到五节那天
能有机会说声抱歉

这一片天空
心情像云朵左右漂流
感情无法并肩走
总要有人先停留
有些话没说
温柔只属于背后
如果轻轻松开这双手能握紧更多
多少个路口记录过三个人的笑容
可是爱情这辆车只能两个人入座
比我更快乐是我唯一的乞求
这样淡淡保留住问候也同样感动
答应我给他整片星空
这一场雨我会笑着接受
我知道再没什么比她幸福更值得放手
我才能真的放心转身走
答应我给他看见永久
写着把爱跟一个梦任愿的甘受
别回头请用真心代替迁就就已经足够
再回首之前最后一个请求...
牵他的手

时间 一分一秒被偷走 所谓的永久
被曾经取代后 变成恶魔
手里握着多余的温柔 独自反覆思索
收藏保留 随风飞走 说来轻松

自由 是否会比较好过 原来没有
成全的背后总有 痛苦在招手
记忆停留在最初时候 星光已不再闪烁
无话可说 继续走 还是朋友

让你走 我的爱失控
藏在幸福快乐的背后
是我 逃避退缩
放开手 对爱不再有奢求
是非对错不想再多说
眼神交会时候 出卖承诺
泪在留

想通 躲在黑暗的出口 难以捉摸
是缘份的作用 导致失控
还是孤独一时的冲动 抹去爱情轮廓
故事内容 谁补充 安静的尘封

世界的旋律因你而转动 就算再失控落
空 音符交织感动 就够
让你走 我不再是我
感受不到心跳的触碰
占有 转眼成空
放开手 对爱不再有奢求徘徊梦中模糊孔
遗留在角落 不再轻易地经过


我一直坐在咖啡厅的角落
没有人发现我还在难过
其实早就以近忘了怎么说
就算再怎么舍不得你还是走了
我还不想承认这事实
怎么会变成这个样子
没有了我真的什么都没有了
就像一个废人
回家的路上我哭了
眼泪在一次崩溃了
无能为力这样走着
再也不干骄傲奢求了
我还能够说些什么
我还能够做些什么
我好希望你会听见
应为爱你我让你走了

lyrics speaks words
words speaks feelings Y

Being not available in Singapore (except for a puny counter in tangs selling only watches at a ridiculous price - what's your point, little counter, huh? Selling to leprechauns?), it really stunned me how gorgeous their products can be

some things just cannot be found in Singapore.I'm beginning to think that shopping here is really lousy.

yes.im talking about(of course)the one and only JUICY COUTURE

i mean..common.look at the amount of cute PINK stuff ):

my crazyness has led to me ebay-ing since...10.wow

but of course...how many people actually SHIP to singapore?


i'd say...2/100


literally.
first thing that i EVER wanted from JC..

juicy couture sidekick 2 (DUH)
Lovely pink Juicy Couture design, with hearts, crown & dog logos
Limited edition – Only 10,000 were ever made
ULTRA CUTE POUCH


even the packaging is so freaking nice!!!

i found ONE ebay seller whom is (almost) PERFECT
Downloaded to the Juicy is
· Stores 2,000 contacts
· Notepad
· Address Book
· Calendar
· Calculator
· To-do list
· 28 ring tones
and you can assign a different ring tone to everyone of your friends!

· USB port
· Text messaging
*Aol Messenger*
· Web surfing
· Wireless e-mail access
· VGA camera with built-in flash
(You can snap a pic. and add it as your screen saver!!!)

Also really cool Hidden Snowboard Game!!

Directional Pad Lights up when phone rings, turns on ect. Colors like Pink, Orange, Yellow, Red, Blue, Green & Purple

Dimensions: (WxDxH) 6.6 cm x 2.3 cm x 13 cm
Weight: 198 grams
Battery: Rechargeable Lithium Polymer Battery. with a Standby Time up to 60 hours, and a Talk Time up to 270 minutes.
Features: QWERTY keyboard layout, speakerphone, vibrate (buzzer), Web Browser and Internet, AOL Instant Messenger, E-Mail, Calendar, Notepad, Camera, Text Messaging, Gaming, Flip/Swivel Screen.

yes.only thing not perfect is the price ):
(approximately US $450.90)-not included shipping!!! ):
BUT ITS ALREADY UNLOCKED!!
due to stupid reasons we have to unlock it to use some functions D:
pleasepleaseplease god i REAAAAAAAAAAAALLY WANT THIS T_T


JC sidekick 2 case (sold seperately)
i swear.if i have this i'll never EVEREVER change my phone again
):


JC mouse and mousepad.cutely PINK! (:

JC tracksuit velour crest in pony snow

JC earpiece!!! with pink crystals.im gonna go CRAAAAAAZEH.):

the only JC non pink item that caught my eye.

ebay seller. the prices are totally too much for me.totally SADDENED.

okay this watch is freaking chio.pink and brown.my official fav colour combination.(the price also VERY chio) ._-

ultra cute JC stiky pads.something i dun need yet ULTRA CUTE D:JC letter writing set includes envelopes and stuff.ULTRA CUTE(love the box too)

JC accessories

I FREAKING WANNA OWN THEM ALL!

JC knows my weakness.PINK.):

imma beg my dad to bring me to KL.theres a JC outlet there.but ill probably STILL be too poor to buy anything

*prays to be rich*

Labels: wishlist this christmas (:

just watched finish

beverly hills chihuahua

yep u saw right its 4.57 a.m LOL

omfishinggosh

ITS SOOOOOOOO GOOD

i cried TWICE ):

and laughed.

alot of times LOL

its the best show.

EVERRRRR

ohmifish

german shepherds are SO FREAKIN LOYAL :D

i shall keep 3 dogs in the future (:

♥german shepherd
♥chihuahua
♥pembroke welsh corgi

AHHH

im freakin craaaaaaaaaaaaaaazeh (:

one down 10000000000 more to go! :D

GONNA WATCH AGENT CODY BANKS NOW.

CYA (:

ello! went marina wid jing todae (:

supposed to go see the bazar but we completely forgot and both of us were too tired to walk back xP

omg i have no idea HOW i spent 50 bucks @_@

whadafish D:

i bought the wallet i saw that day...22 bucks...

bought a slipper fr my mum cuz she hurt her leg other slipper pain ): $15.90...

muji chocolates...(JING FORCED ME D:) $2.60...

ate kenny rodgers roasters...around..8 bucks?

48.50 already! xP

bleh ):

im broke T_T

i seriously needa earn some money soon ._.

*~wait for it...

*~wait for it...

Dear Hwee Ling,
I don't really know how to tell you this, but I'm in love with your sister.I think I realized it when I saw the shrunken head At the mental hospital and I saw you sit on Manchester United's goalkeeper.I'm sure you're Middle-class enough to understand That I get turned on by garbage men.I'm returning Your false teeth to you, but I'll keep David's tricot outfits as a memory. You should also know that I Always have felt dirty before A new life as a clone. Greetings to your freaky family.

Loves;xue

P/S: You are so lifeless, French kisser ,Hwee Ling a.k.a. socksie.

(okay...firstly...socksies the only child.secondly, i have not been to a mental hospital.thirdly, I DO NOT GET TURNED ON BY GARBAGE MEN.)

another one~ (:

[x] Both of your parents are from Asia

[x] You were born in Asia

[ ] You use the term "Azn"

[x] You think DDR is cool

[ ] You've watched lots of anime

[x] You like Korean drama

[x] You have stuff hanging on your phone

[ ] Your parents want you to marry within your own race

[x] You eat rice almost everyday

[x] You drink lemon tea

X's so far: 7

[x] You style your hair

[x] You have a bebo/myspace/friendster

[x] You speak languages other than English

[] Your parents are strict

[x] Your parents have high expectations of you

[] You always get A's/B's on your report

[x] You do Chemistry/Biology/Physics/Accounting

[] You know your multiplication table

[] You play badminton or table tennis or Irish Pingpong

[] You've seen the asian version The ring/The grudge

X's so far: 12

[] You go/want to go to a university and would NEVER consider an apprenticeship

[ ] You own an asian car (Honda, Toyota, etc)

[x] You're not the only child

[] You've gotten little red envelopes around February

[ ] You know the difference between kung fu, karate and tae kwon do

[] Your mother tries to bargain even though the product is already discounted

[ ] You can solve a rubiks cube

[x] You have a box of noodles somewhere in your house

[x] You play video games

X's so far: 15

[] Everytime you're going out, your parents ask you where you're going and what time you'll be home

[ ] You have karaoke at home

[x] You've been to a LAN more than 3 times

[x] You have incense sticks/moth balls in your house

[ ] You own a gaming console

[x] You don't wear shoes in your house

[x] You can use chopsticks

[] You get nothing if you do well in school, but punished if you don't

X's so far: 19

[ ] Your parents won't let you go out if you have school the next day

[x] You have asian songs on your computer/iPod

[x] You don't like football

[ ] You like Soccer.

X's so far: 21

[ ] You have a curfew

[ ] You know what ulzzang/tb means

[ ] You know what purikura is

[x] you like bubble tea

[ ] Your parents bought you shoes many sizes too big so you can "grow into it" and wear it for years to come

[ ] You've played final fantasy

[ ] You believe in fortune cookies

X's so far: 22

[ ] You know what is bok choy

[ ] You've heard the song "Got rice?" (Asian Pride)

[x] You've had pockys/yan yan before

[ ] when you ask for ur mums permission she goes "ask ur dad"

X's so far: 23

Total X's: 23

Multiply your total score by 2

I am 46% Asian! <(o.o)>

TO MY DARLING C.M =3

cheer up babe hes a jerk anyway :D
he doesnt deserve u

he'll burn in hell >=D
u still have meeeeeee <3

A man came home from work late, tired and irritated, to find his 5-year old son waiting for him at the door.
SON: 'Daddy, may I ask you a question?'
DAD: 'Yeah sure, what it is?' replied the man.
SON: 'Daddy, how much do you make an hour?'
DAD: 'That's none of your business. Why do you ask such a thing?' the man said angrily.
SON: 'I just want to know. Please tell me, how much do you make an hour?'
DAD: 'If you must know, I make $50 an hour.'

SON: 'Oh,' the little boy replied, with his head down.
SON: 'Daddy, may I please borrow $25?'
The father was furious, 'If the only reason you asked that is so you can borrow some money to buy a silly toy or some other nonsense, then you march yourself straight to your room and go to bed. Think about why you are being so selfish. I don't work hard everyday for such childish frivolities.'
The little boy quietly went to his room and shut the door.
The man sat down and started to get even angrier about the little boy's questions.
How dare he ask such questions only to get some money?
After about an hour or so, the man had calmed down , and started to think: Maybe there was something he really needed to buy with that $25.00 and he really didn't ask for money very often
The man went to the door of the little boy's room and opened the door.
'Are you asleep, son?' He asked.
'No daddy, I'm awake,' replied the boy.
'I've been thinking, maybe I was too hard on you earlier' said the man. 'It's been a long day and I took out my aggravation on you. Here's the $25 you asked for.'
The little boy sat straight up, smiling. 'Oh, thank you daddy!' he yelled.
Then, reaching under his pillow he pulled out some crumpled up bills.
The man saw that the boy already had money, started to get angry again.
The little boy slowly counted out his money, and then looked up at his father.
'Why do you want more money if you already have some?' the father grumbled.
'Because I didn't have enough, but now I do,' the little boy replied.
'Daddy, I have $50 now. Can I buy an hour of your time? Please come home early tomorrow. I would like to have dinner with you.'
The father was crushed.
He put his arms around his little son, and he begged for his forgiveness.

It's just a short reminder to all of you working so hard in life.
We should not let time slip through our fingers without having spent some time with those who really matter to us, those close to our hearts.
Do remember to share that $50 worth of your time with someone you love.
If we die tomorrow, the company that we are working for could easily replace us in a matter of hours.
But the family & friends we leave behind will feel the loss for the rest of their lives.