this morning was probably the most unexpected day of my life
even until now im still wondering if it really happened
this morning i woke up and took the bus to school as usual
then this sji guy(ive seen him a few times)was standing beside me due to the bus being like a can and we were the sardines.
after a while i noticed he was getting closer but then i concluded that i was thinking too much
however, after a while i saw him playing with his phone as if he was uncertain of something.
when i was reaching the guy nudged me and of course its natural instincts to look right?so i looked and then he lighted up his phone to show me this
"can i have your number pls?"
I WANTED TO DIG A HOLE AND BURY MYSELF(obviously i dont know how to reject him and i cant possibly give my number right?so i ended up smiling like an idiot the rest of the journey.
I FELT SO GUILTY.when the bus door opened i made sure i waited for him to get off first.and the poor boy ran out :/ so embarrassing!!!!even until now i still feel guilty!urgh.oh well.....ANYWAY.today i got back my bio papers too!
mrs mohan was talking about how shes proud of some people who improved and how she wants to see some people who did badly.(then she stared STRAIGHT at me with her big eyes look)and i expected that i did badly for the test(and dint improve), even though i studied like crazy i would fail again!(as usual) then she announced the highest in class and she CALLED MY NAME.
I GOT A HUGE SHOCK (so shock+shock=SHOCK in disbelief)and obviously i stared at her and asked if she's serious and she said yes!!!!!!!!!I GOT FIRST IN CLASS FOR BIO TEST.IVE NEVER FELT SO GLAD FOR A LONG TIME!IVE BEEN FAILING BIO SINCE EOYS LAST YEAR!then after that she talked to me about how this was actually a mindset thing right?and i was like ermmm yea(: then she asked me to influence my friends(right._.) THEN THERE CAME THE QUESTION THAT SHE MARKED WRONGLY AND MINUS-ED ONE OF MY MARKS but i found a additional mark in my essay questions so i basically got the same marks, BUT if i hadnt minus-ed the stupid one mark, i would have got A2 =_=
so angry at myself!i dint read the question properly and only drew 1 graph instead of 2!grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.my A2 gone ): but i thank god for this awesome encouragement(i was about to give up studying because i always still failed)indeed God does everything in his time.(:
having CH interview this saturday at 2.:S


with love: xue (: Y6:40 PM